His words pierced me. The eldest of my blessings was wondering if I had ever had a good day. Embarrassed and bewildered by his question, I answered in the overwhelming affirmative. However, I realized how my ingratitude had taken a toll on my family.
The last months of the deployment and the first few weeks of Hubs being home had been tougher than I wanted them to be. I was so weary. Nothing particularly bad happened, but I had struggled to find the good. Ann Voskamp calls this the hard eucharisteo. I only focused on the hard and forgot about the thanksgiving....the thanks-living.
Someone once told me that his wife set the tone for their home. I realized then that this was certainly the case for our home. Yet I have failed to show my children how to be grateful for the seemingly inconsequential, the simple things, as well as the big evidences of grace.
Thinking that I had so poisoned my home with my ingratitude broke my heart in two.
And so, with his words echoing in my mind, I chose differently that day and most of the days since. I work without (much) complaining. I (mostly) enjoy the simple and mundane. I (generally) keep a good attitude. I even have a little bit of fun.
I reap what I sow. I have GOOD days.
And I am sure to tell my deep thinker, too.
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| a constant reminder at the end of my hallway |
67. answering lots of questions
68. an understanding husband
69. running for the first time in a long time
70. my foot doesn't hurt!
71. watching my blessings choosing to bless others through World Vision
72. Monkey's incredibly cute mischief
73. Gator's Spirit-led question
74. counting His gifts once again
75. a better-than-expected house
76. an easy transition
77. seeing familiar faces in unexpected places
78. reminders of good friends spread throughout my new house
79. a hot shower, a lock on the bathroom door, and a loud bathroom fan
80. a home that fits our extended family
80. a home that fits our extended family
81. being closer to family
82. good friends who send unexpected e-mails
83. music
84. new friends for the boys
85. hugs before friends deploy
86. friends to support like I was supported
87. our new chapel home
88. PWOC tomorrow!
89. Hubs' new dream job
90. my life
1 comment:
Your new profile picture is great! And thanks for sharing all the pictures of your new house. I would love to chat sometime about how homeschool is going.
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